Have you thought about the difference between want and need? I did, and it got me thinking… more than usual.
Wants are things that bring me joy.
Needs are things I will die without…literally and figuratively.
I want to say I need Tiffany’s sparkly things draped over me. But that’s not true, I lived this long without – so far so good.
I want to say I need a regular Disney vacation and a trip to the beach to soak up the sun. Again, I can live without it but those do enhance the joy factor.
I want to say I need a library like Belle in Beauty and the Beast (Disney version) but again, that is a joy enhancement.
Wants are awesome but not life fulfilling.
Needs are. I had a couple of lengthy chats with two different, yet very great friends. Both are male and both feed a different part of my soul. One friend I can talk about fitness, family, writing and life’s ups and downs. His friendship has become a need. I feel energized after talking and I have plenty of brain food to think about.
I need Brain Food.
The other friend I talk to semi-regularly and we talk about business, ethics, values and strategy. More brain food.
I need these types of friends in my life. This is why I enjoy book club. It requires the intellect in me to discuss the books we read with insight and awakening. I enjoy the social content of the evening but the book discussion is the pinnacle for me.
I had told my friend my wish for him. I wish that he would get the things he needs to enhance his life life because we all deserve that. Needs are important. Then he said to me, so what do you need. Wow, I hesitated.
For a very long time I didn’t put my needs anywhere near where I could benefit from them. I know this is a problem for lots of women, moms in particular. Although I have learned that I am not alone, there are men who do the same thing. We are nurturers. We give because we love it, it fills us to a certain extent but then we forget to put in the plug and all kinds of goodness leaks out and the well becomes dry.
So what do I need? It is simple. Without these things I shrivel up and die. Not physically but mentally and that is worse.
1. I need to mom. I am the mom to 2 amazing kids. I need a life that lets me put their needs ahead of mine while they are still minors. I need them to know how important they are to me and that I would move mountains for them. I need to be the dependable one, the one they know will always be there for them without judgement. The no judgement part is hard. My wish is for them to be high end achievers but nagging them to death to study is not going to get there. I give them space to fall. I am there with a hand up or a band-aid if they require it. They rarely need a hand anymore, this fills me with pride. I see failure in their future. I want to stop it but this is how we grow, change and mature. We need failure to learn. You rarely learn from doing everything right. It will be more painful for me then it will be for them, but I will do it. I need this. I need them to know I am always in their corner.
–I wanted 4 but needed only one. Two was a bonus.
2. I need to run. This means I need the time, the support (don’t nag me that I am gone again – luckily I have support!), the space and the freedom to set goals. I need the challenge of races to shoot for both in short term and long term. I need quiet when I run. Don’t talk to me. This is my meditation. If I invite you to run it is because I want your presence. If I don’t and you ask if you can come with me, the answer is yes. But don’t talk to me. Running is my communion with nature, my release, my thoughts acknowledgement and peace.
-I want to be a gazelle, but only need to move. Gazelle status will be a bonus.
3. I need intellectual stimulus. Mindless, numbing activity is deadly. It makes me create scenarios in my brain. I’d rather live outside of my brain that live in it, but I will do both if I have too. I need to be challenged. I need intellectual conversation. I need the freedom to seek this. I like being smart because the more you learn, the more you realize you know nothing. Therefore learning is a lifelong challenge.
–I want to be a professional student and have long lengthy chats with other academics but having friends who challenge me is a bonus.
4. I need chocolate. Not everyday but when I need it, look out – it isn’t pretty.
-I want only great chocolate but any chocolate when I need it is a bonus.
I am lucky, I have my needs met. Now – on to the wants…lets start with that vacation to NYC…