I was sitting at lunch today chatting up a storm with Polly and BarbieArm, when the topic turned to me I asked “What the heck is wrong with me?”
They both looked at me and said, “You are very motivated”
Motivated. It sure sounds like I am, but I think there is something else going on. I have this burning something forcing me forward. I have never experienced this feeling with such a ferocity before. It feels like I am in a race and I have to get to the end quickly. Quickly?!? That is impossible! I have to take my time and endure baby steps to meet my goals. There is no way I can do this quickly!!
Yet I feel like I am losing time and I need to get everything done. Why do you think that is? It’s like having extreme ants in your pants. I have looked ahead to 2012 and have set some solid goals. I can visualize myself completing them. The goals I have set for this summer are solid and need time to complete. Yet I can easily see myself completing those as well. But I think there is an alarm clock going off and it makes me eager to push forward and fast. I am holding myself down with excitement, yet at the same time I am feeling heart broken because I am not done. This is a very odd situation to be in. I don’t seem to have the answer, maybe you do. Is the Psychic Network still out there? Should I call them and ask? You think that would help? If you are psychic, can you tell me what’s wrong with me?
I am use to moving at a steady pace. Some inner motor is driving me forward. It feels….NORMAL
Normal? What the hell is THAT!? Looking forward to the future to see what it holds. WOW, THAT is a new feeling. 8 months ago I was ready for an adventure. 4 months from now, I know I will get something so monumental, but have no idea what it is. I can feel some energy pulling me towards it.
I hope it is something great like Tom Hanks experience in BIG and not something crappy like what happened to Aron Rolston in 127 hours.
Either way, it will make for a good read.